It started with a great day with great weather (Saturday Morning: 9am) when i was on my way to accupunture clinic at Old Klang Road. While i was waiting for my turn to get massage or check by the Xin Sei, so i thought i can occupy my time with reading chinese newspaper which i hardly get the chance to even touch it.
Oriental Daily which was just right in front of me. Hmm.. on the main page, i saw familiar face which was a Black and White photo and with sad and unpleasant title. In my mind was like: "It can't be. ok.. ok. Hmm.. probably not. ..then.., that looks like.. SHIT! Oh dear !! SHIT!!". Shit and oh dear were the words that appeared in my mind. Seriously, i couldn't believe what i saw in the newspaper. *One of My very first batch of Chemistry students whom i tutored them, Nick. Nick Tan. *
The only person i can think of after i saw the article was Hamdi (my very first batch of chemistry student). I called Hamdi to ask him whether it is true *which i really hope it's not him*. Reason i called him because i know he is really close with Nick. Ah..it's the most shitty news i've ever received. Yes, it's Nick. Nick whom i know in my lab. Nick whom i've marked his chemistry reports. Nick whom i 'ejek' him during crop science lab last semester. Nick whom i've had dinner with him and the rest of the close friends before i left to New Zealand.
Ah.. here, i'm not going to type out the news because i still in the "can't believe" situation.
Nick (if you can hear from all the lab demonstrators), all the demonstrators whom taught you before : want to SLAP you, want to ask you to wake up, want you to call or at least write an email and let us know what sort of difficulties you have or anything that bothers/distract you. Nick, how could you do this to all of us?
*There is a moment (eventhough i'm not close to you), in my heart.. i kept on think that i should have stay in Monash be lab demo so that at least i get to see you around campus and able to see you and the rest together happy.*
But then again, i know it's late to say that. All i can do is respect and hate the decision you have made.
Today afternoon, after the funeral, i called Hamdi to make sure he is alright. This is one part of our conversation: I told Hamdi: " Ah..Nick, so good. I think now he is an island..enjoying himself with turtles and other marine animals. Relax and rest .. oo.. can see smile and happy face" . Then Hamdi said: "Ya, with pretty ladies also".
Message to Nick:
May you rest in peace. Remember now you have a new task is to be a guardian angel. *We'll remember you, my friend*
Message to God:
God, protect this wonderful child. *Probably can ask him to be a chef because i heard a lot of his friends said he really can cook good food*.
Message to all my fellow friends and students:
Let us pray for Nick. Now we know he had gone to a better place. *hugs*
NICK, MAY YOU REST IN PEACE!!